I'm heading to Singapore to start my new life, will be working there starting July, and will leave Malaysia by tomorrow. It is not to say that my dream is to change job or to work in Singapore, it is something more than that.
You only get to live your life once, so I wanted to live mine to the fullest. At this moment I realized that I'm in the state of saturation, everything seems to be going okay and that's it, nothing more, which is very frightening. I'm still 27 years old, for job wise, at least I still want to continue to grow further. When I reach my mid 30's to 40's, I think that's only the time when I'll let my job saturates and shifting my energy to grow on something else.
I can change to a different job function within the same company, but I decided to leave instead. I wanted to explore the world, I don't want to stuck at the same comfort zone for my whole life. I can change other jobs within Malaysia, but I decided to leave my homeland. For some reason it is no longer safe to stay in Malaysia... maybe it is better way to protect the one I love, as of now I need to worry about her safety everyday she go out to work. I don't want to live my life being afraid of this and that every single day in my life. For some other reason, I just wanted to reset myself, back to zero and start all over again. This is the usual way I used to force myself to change, to evolve, to improve and become better.
I'm no longer a young child or teenager anymore. Life's short. Thinking about this makes me really drill deep down my mind and see what I'm expecting for my future, for the rest of my life, and at this moment, I know what I probably wanted, so I'm doing my best to strive for it. I'm already 27 years old, there's not much time left to really map out the path for my future and for the rest of my life, and I have to really act fast before starting to regret myself.
Packing up my stuff, saying goodbye to friends, and off I'll leave my beloved homeland. Will I ever come back? I wonder... well, that will be another part of the story about my life, so... stay tuned for more of that. For now, wish me luck and all the best...
beautiful story.
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